It’s time for that thing that I do occasionally but not nearly often enough. It’s time for a Site News Update thing. I usually call it “This Month in Anger” or some s$&%, but as I’ve been very bad about doing it on a monthly basis, I really can’t do that. I should have done this a month ago at least, as my schedule has been very erratic. So, let’s catch up.
Why I Get Personal
Whenever I do these, I make sure to include a little bit about what’s going on in my personal life. Especially because my personal life is an unceasing miasma of chaos and disaster and has a direct impact on my work. Now, some people have told me that they don’t give a f$&% about my personal life, that I share too much, and that I’m unprofessional for being open. Others have told me they appreciate my openness and transparency. It’s been an ongoing argument for a few months now. Well, the argument is over. I’m weighing in.
I ALWAYS call out the details of my personal life with headings in these updates. Which means, if you don’t like the fact that they are being shared, you can skip them. You can say a lot about me, but one thing I am very good at is using the headings to keep my content somewhat modular. The same goes for the Long, Rambling Introductions™. Everything before the first heading is Long, Rambling Introduction™ people. It isn’t f$&%ing rocket science.
Given that, I am going to keep on telling people what is going on with me. And the reason why is because of all the people who do ask for it. End of the day, I’d rather give them the option and let everyone who wants to opt out than take the option away from everyone. Sometimes, you have to build stuff so people can opt in. Sometimes, so people can opt out.
Besides, it is important TO ME to remain transparent. This is no longer just a hobby, this is something people are putting up money for. And that means I answer to those people. Now, I have not yet gone a month without delivering on my basic Patreon promise: four feature articles. And I don’t intend to. And the month I do f$&% that up, I also don’t collect the money for four feature articles. But the schedule has been erratic and people deserve to know when they can delivery of the goods they are paying for.
Moreover, there are actually people who – believe it or – genuinely care about my well-being. I’m pretty shocked about that myself. People ask me how I’m doing. Especially if things go quiet. They worry about me. And I’ll tell you something, lately, those people have been pretty f$&%ing important. I’m lucky to have those people. Luckier than anyone might think.
Long story short: if you don’t care about my personal details, skip those parts of the monthly updates. Because I’m going to keep doing. And if that angers you for some reason, well, I’ll check in the back but I’m pretty sure I’m all out of f$&%s to give.
After six months of gradually declining health, three months of substantially crappy health, and eight weeks of fighting with doctors, specialists, insurance companies, and pharmacies, I am finally under treatment for a medical condition that has thankfully turned out to be not cancer. Although some of the underlying problems are highly personal, I’m willing to say that I have been suffering from a serious hormone deficiency that created some substantial metabolic problems and also brought along a pretty serious depression. As of last week, I have the medicine I need and a treatment plan. However, it will be a week or two before things start to come into balance. A lot of you have been incredibly supportive and, for that, I am extremely grateful. Because it has been extremely rough. Physically and emotionally. There’s nothing like a combination of metabolic and hormonal problems and the depression they bring along to really just wreck your s$&%.
Now, the hard work has to begin. As a result of those issues, I gained back forty of the nearly two-hundred pounds I managed to lose over the last five years and I have lost a lot of muscle mass, particularly from my legs. It’s been pretty devastating. I was very proud of what I had accomplished. Now I have regain all of that lost ground lest I end up back in serious diabetic territory or wandering the blood pressure highlands looking for Stroke Town.
But, coupled with all of this was a pretty serious depression that has also started to abate. And during that time, especially over the last three months, I’ve been a major asshole to a lot of people. You know I’m serious, because I said asshole and not a$&hole. I’ve gone beyond the normal Angry being angry and have been mean-spirited, insulting, demeaning, and outright awful to a few people who didn’t deserve it. I have been trying to apologize to the people I mistreated and make amends, but if you are one of those people and I didn’t recall our argument, please know that I am deeply sorry. You didn’t deserve that. If I have blocked you on Twitter or social media unfairly and haven’t unblocked you yet, please let me know. Leave a comment, send me an e-mail, whatever.
Anyway, I am now feeling optimistic for the first time in several long months. It’s going to be a tough recovery, but I appreciate all of your patience. And your support. Thank you.
I will be at GenCon this year. Several folks have asked what I had planned. Truth is, I really don’t have anything planned. Except one thing. Brian “Fiddleback” Casey and I are doing a Live GM Word of the Week on Thursday at 12 PM. It’s a one-hour seminar that will include a half-hour performance and a half-hour of Q&A and general chat. We’ve still got about 80 tickets unsold. It’s Gen Con Event ENT17122294.
And that’s it. That’s all I have officially planned and scheduled. I am not scheduled to run any games or to host any seminars this year and I’m not doing a charity event like I did last year. I also won’t be participating in the Orc Stomp. And, honestly, I’m kind of looking forward to GenCon just being a vacation this year instead of the giant chaotic mess it usually is. I’m still recovering from everything and I’m not sure how well I can keep up with my usual runaround.
That doesn’t mean I don’t want to meet anyone. Far from it. I love meeting folks and talking shop. And I will be carrying my customary stash of board games and pick-up-and-run RPGs. If you want to say hello, let me know. I will say hello. And if I end up with a knot of people around me who all want to sit and kill an hour or two, I’ll probably be up for a board game. And, if you are a Patreon supporter, I definitely want to thank you and shake your hand. At the very least. Generally, I meet up with people via Twitter. That’s the best way to find out what I’ve got going on. And if you want to get together, send me a direct message on Twitter and we can try to set something up.
That said, I am still suffering bouts of exhaustion, fatigue, and body aches and there are a few people who I’m working on projects with that I absolutely have to give some time to. So, if I’m not up to running a game or playing a board game or can’t hang out very long, please be understanding.
Features for August
Obviously, the feature schedule has been erratic over the last two months. I’m sorry about that. But I’ve had to work around doctors and health issues as best I could. With GenCon next week, the feature schedule for this month is also going to be a little erratic. There will be a feature next Wednesday, August 16, one on Wednesday, August 23, and two in the last week of August. Probably Tuesday and Thursday. Thereafter, the schedule should be back on track for once weekly on Wednesday. That said, I will probably throw together some kind of GenCon report or update where I review some of the news and products and things I discover at GenCon. That will show up in addition to the normal features.
As for what I’ll be covering with the Features, well, I want you to know that I do listen to you guys. I really, really do. People have told me that they want me to just stick with the topics I’m already writing about for now instead of constantly inventing new series and plans and projects. In the short term, I will continue discussing campaign design and I will finish the hidden stuff mechanical analysis. After that, I’ll move on and continue alternating between rules hacks and modules and campaign and setting design with one article of random, rambling bulls$&% on higher concepts thrown in every month. That seems to be a good pattern.
Yes, it is coming back. I haven’t stopped working on the Megadungeon. It has slowed, but it hasn’t stopped. I’ll be picking it back up as a regular, weekly thing starting in September.
First of all, despite everything that’s been going on, the first season of my online game: The League of the Blue Cloak for Victim level supporters has come to an end. That was a beta test with a limited number of players. As of this week, the second batch of invitations has gone out. If you are a Victim level supporter and weren’t offered a seat in Season 1, check your e-mail.
Second of all, I am in the process of porting the Secret Stash over to a new platform and converting some of the materials from my online game – mostly monster statistics and maps – over to the Secret Stash. I’m also trying to do a few short write ups to accompany the stat blocks and that will basically amount to building an ongoing “Angryverse Bestiary.” So, look out for some new ways to handle undead and elementals coming soon to the stash. By the end of the month, the stash will have moved away from Google Drive. So if you are a Frienemy level supporter, make sure I have your current e-mail address on file so I can share the new stash.
Third of all, I have connected Discord – an online text and voice chat program – to my Patreon. Currently, anyone who is supporting at the Seriously Not Hated, Frienemy, or Victim level can join my Discord server. I haven’t been as active there as I want to be, but lots of fun discussions about game design have taken place now and again in the text server. And that will also be the site of the monthly Live Chats with Angry. If you are supporting me at the appropriate level and want to join the fun, here’s what you need to do.
First, you need to create a Discord login if you don’t have one already. You can visit DiscordApp.com and either use the web client or download the desktop app. Next, you have to link your Discord account to your Patreon account through the settings page at Patreon. After you do that, the next time you log in to Discord, you will be automatically invited to the Angry Discord Server.
I’ll let you in on a big secret too. I said Twitter was the best way to find out what I’m doing at GenCon? Well, the REAL best way is to chat with me on Discord.
Getting the online game set up has been a major victory and I’m very happy to be able to show my thanks to my highest tier supporters with monthly D&D games. It is running better than I dared hope, despite some scheduling issues. Getting the secret stash moved and filling it with more stuff is my next big goal, along with actually doing some Live Chats. So, Stay Tuned. And, in the meanwhile, thank you for your support.
As for the future beyond articles and Patreon rewards? Well, I’ve got something else in the works that I’ve been gradually hacking through some red tape to make happen. It’s very exciting. I can’t wait to be able to share it.